The Writer's Weekly

Good morning everyone!

I find that my blogs are sticking less and less to the titles I created. Oh, well.

I have given up my fear. You know those nagging little voices in your head that say things to stop you, to scare you even. The dreaded 'what if' voices. Well, I've decided not to listen to them anymore.

This has been a long process--it definitely didn't happen over night. When something big goes wrong that 'what if' voice can really take over your head. It says to you, 'well, you failed at that so maybe you'll fail at this and this and this too.' So over time I have learned to pay less and less attention to that voice. And with renewed confidence comes more silence. The voice's volume steadily grows quieter until now I can barely hear it.

Choosing to give up that fear has really changed my life. Doors have opened where I thought they would be closed for sure. I mean I was convinced that they'd be closed! I was really, really wrong! Realizing that has suddenly opened my eyes.

I was looking at the world as if a barrier existed in front of my path. It's as if I felt I constantly had to climb over something or swerve around something to get to where I wanted to go.

In reality I think people had to constantly climb over something or swerve around something to get to me. And of course not too many people bothered to try, I mean why would they? I had set up so many road blocks that I was practically unattainable.

Well, the road blocks have fallen. I feel really light and strangely exposed but not in a scary way. I write differently, I talk differently, I ask for what I want without hesitation (remember no more 'what ifs') and I'm overwhelmed by the response I've gotten.

Honestly, if only I'd been able to do this sooner I would have gotten what I wanted all that time ago. But, I wasn't ready then and that's the real truth. The road blocks were up because I wasn't able to live completely honestly and fully, not then.

But I am now.

This required a lot of courage and hard work and soul searching (literally). And I am continuing on that journey. This is only the beginning, I am convinced of that.